Importance of health and my love of photography
Fyi, this is more of a personal post, but it does talk about both my health and photography.
Last night, was a long night. I was up at 2am and then 4am, which in itself is nothing unusual for me. But, last night as well as not being able to walk, (as there is gout in my foot) for a very brief moment I could not open my eyes. It was frightening, it took me about 30 seconds and then I could open them but they were stinging so much. I have had what feels like grit in my eyes for the last couple of months. But I wonder now if this is to do with the gout, another horrible complication of renal failure. Fortunately the Gp has given me steroids and I really hope that this is quick to work, for my eyes are very sore today.
As I couldn’t sleep, I was just thinking. A past-time I have got particularly good at in the last few months. My thoughts focused on positive mental attitude. I am a firm believer that this makes a difference. If the brain can keep going, the body keeps going too. If the brain gives up, the body has nothing to tell it it needs to fight on, it will be ok, it is worth the pain, and you will get through to the other side. It motivates and mobilises the body to keep fighting. But at the same time, I also think that a positive mental attitude can’t cure you. If major things start to go wrong with the body, you need help. The body is an amazing delicate ecosystem and once things start to go wrong there is a domino effect. All the positivity in the world cannot redress that.
My photography as always has always been a positive force in my life. I am continuing every day to do photoshop work and to take a couple of pictures, even if I am only walking a couple of metres to photograph it. The photography has been my solace ever since my diagnosis, it provides distraction and it is a creative endeavour. It is important to be able to create when your body feels like it is being constantly damaged. My love of photography is uplifting and no pun intended keeps me focused. My health and photography are now completely entwined.
I do remain positive, and I do believe I will be ok. The aches and pains that have been plaguing my body for at least a year, well, the doctors have found the cause. It can be easily rectified by removing a troublesome gland. So, I am positive that I will be able to keep strong, keep going and keep shooting.
Stay well, Victoria x